Reflections on 2015: Year of Callousing Skin
I’m going to try and keep this short this year. I have always found great benefit in this habit of eight years now, and looking back on all the previous […]
Progress on the Path
Reflections on 2014: Year of Verdant Upshoots
As I look back upon the years that fashioned me, I find a few consistent strands ever present and ever thickening. Today marks the one out of 365 days during […]
Reflections on 2013: Year of Burning Embers
Burning Embers: This year was a bed of burning coals we witnessed the visions of which induced by traversing trials and challenging moments and enduring much in the way of […]
Paul R Fleischman on 10-day Vipassana Meditation Retreats
I have just returned from another meditation retreat such as I have been doing for the past 3 or so years and I am again deeply moved by the experienced […]
Reflections on 2011
It is the 31st of December, according to human convention signifying the final day of the year 2011 and offering a fitting moment for reflection on all that has taken […]
all problems are in your own mind
All problems are in your own mind. We cannot escape the prison of our subjectivity, that which conditions the world. The error is to misattribute the colors our mind paints […]
an exploration of myself and why i am depressed
Today I am fairly depressed. It is a strange state that I feel myself to be descending into, as it seems distinctly chemical. I can feel the rolling turmoil of […]
Reflections on 2010
Well well well, another year has come to its end and so it is again time to take a step back and look at my life from a distance in […]
What do I want to do with my life?
This seems like a particularly urgent question at this time of growth and development. I am already in the midst of a graduate degree which is costing my father a […]
Tortured by Desire
I am either cursed or blessed, but at the moment I am leaning towards the former. Whatever is happening to me is certainly unpleasant and I keep on falling back […]
Struggling
It has been a remarkably fast descent back to my unregenerate mind and lack of motivation and dryness of the practice since the Goenka retreat of one month ago. Today, […]
Disenchantment and Motivation
I discovered an exceptionally strong ally in my path during my ten-day retreat which allowed me to sit indefinitely longer than I had in the past and gave me greater […]
Need for Balance
Today was the first day of my summer discipline schedule and I have found the organisation of my life around a pre-determined timetable to be quite relieving and helpful for […]
Gladder by Writing
There is a need to gladden the mind when it is overtaken by this despairing mood that sinks down upon me when my meditation practice starts drying up and when […]
My Torment
My torment is what I wish to speak of here. I am a cursed man, and that which plagues me lies in the hearts of all the people around me […]
Eye-Contact
From MY ART So I wanted to talk about this experience I had yesterday and how it inspired me to write about it, perhaps in the form of a short […]
Sila
It’s been a while since I wrote anything, so I’ve sort of lost the flow and the habit of writing but not really. Anyway it doesn’t matter and it doesn’t […]
In the Midst of Noise-Hell
Right now I am experiencing intense anger because my flat-mates are barraging me with almost unbearable noise pollution. One of them seems to be absolutely welded to his phone as […]
karmiclawday
Today I have been contemplating karma and trying to reach a better understanding of this universal law and what follows here is my reasoning: I first realized that this […]
strangesynchronicityday
I just want to talk a little bit about this weird phenomenon that I have been witnessing lately since the start of my spiritual path. This is the phenomenon of […]