line-view from my window

today has been an interesting day. i haven’t been able to maintain the same level of presence that i had been living in the past three days. but, i have been able to return every once in a while back to my body, feel my breath, see the world in a fresh way. but for some reason there is a negative mood floating around in my mind, and most of the day has been spent thinking mindlessly and mainly negatively. however, i did keep an effort to return back to my body and breath at every chance i could remember to do so. woke up early this morning with a head full of thoughts which even a meditation could not rid me of. but it did give some relief, brought me back to the present. soon enough i was lost again.

the lines in my picture of the day represent the parallel realities humans have access to and the various levels we may choose to live our lives at. there are the levels of ego-consciousness and the levels of the NOW and then there are even higher and even lower levels, creating an expansive continuum of the states one may inhabit, whether by willful choice or without it. this was my lesson today, that i have the choice to access vastly different realms of consciousness and that they coexist side-by-side in a sliding continuum. i must have Right Effort to ensure that i will be able to shift myself into permanent residence in the higher states of greater awareness and presence.

“let us rise up and be thankful, for if we didn’t learn a lot today, at least we learned a little, and if we didn’t learn a little, at least we didn’t get sick, and if we got sick, at least we didn’t die; so, let us all be thankful.”
– Buddha